tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post8378655539963402947..comments2023-03-25T04:04:59.973-07:00Comments on Coherence is Bliss: How Do You Cope?Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-4736013393411691152009-06-07T07:49:11.623-07:002009-06-07T07:49:11.623-07:00I'm sorry to hear the actual story, Lex...i kn...I'm sorry to hear the actual story, Lex...i know he had passed but didnt know how ((hugs))<br /><br />you know, for years i had been paranoind about losing someone. i am a naturally sensitive person and i just knew that losing someone would completely devastate me. i couldnt imagine losing someone and not being ready to die myself...when i found out my grandma was dying early 2008, i knew i had to take the time i had left with her and use it wisely. I am the type of person who will literally avoid the situation if i think a person is near death, but i couldnt do it with her. everyday i went over with lunch, or giving my aunt a break to do some things, and i would just sit and look at her and talk to her, because i knew that everyday i left might be the very last time i laid eyes on her. I did right by her up til the very end, and i remember walking out the house a few days before she died and i asked her if she was going to watch the fireworks or go partying on the 4th of July. She laughed and told me no, and i looked at her and said "ok grandma, take care!" and left. she died the 9th of July. i never told her goodbye because i know i will see her again...to this day, i cant go in that house....i went in that house every week of my life for 27 years and i just cant do it. if i walk in there and see she isnt sitting in her chair in the corner watching Paula Deen on tv, or in the kitchen in her housedress making dinner or cookies, even just smell her... i know its going to be like losing her all over again.<br /><br />that said, it has been a hard year. and everytime i think it gets better or a little easier, something happens that takes me back to the beginning. i hope that eventually it will fade to where it wont hurt so bad...and i hope the same for you! the only thing we can do is repay the legacy that these people left, is to keep living life the way they did...Sadiqua: Head Mistress, S.O.S. Inc.https://www.blogger.com/profile/06777494042086431723noreply@blogger.com