tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-92189942123433464932024-03-12T16:38:20.773-07:00Coherence is BlissLexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.comBlogger67125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-67926628655458177192010-03-29T11:25:00.000-07:002010-03-29T11:29:59.178-07:00How???Lately, I've been asking myself a lot of questions that start with that very word. "HOW?"<div><br /></div><div>How do you support someone you care about when they push you away at every open opportunity?</div><div><br /></div><div>It IS hurtful when someone you love takes out their frustrations on you. Especially if you didn't do anything wrong, and all you want to do is be comforting.</div><div><br /></div><div>As the type of person i am, i don't like to see the people i love and care about suffer. But at the same time, i cant just continue to be the doormat you rub your feet on after coming in from a storm.</div><div><br /></div><div>When will people see that it's behavior like that that will push a good person away.. possibly forever?</div><div><br /></div><div>I really wish the person that this was geared to could understand that their actions are slowly but surely making me want to X them out of my life forever..</div><div><br /></div><div>Nothing i hate more than to be built up just to be let down.</div><div><br /></div><div>♥</div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-34922680250976146472010-03-24T20:51:00.000-07:002010-03-24T21:00:36.669-07:00Happy Birthday to Me.I know i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">haven't</span> blogged in a while. There are numerous reasons for neglect. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">I'm</span> sorry.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>BUT <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">I'm</span> back now!! *throws confetti*</div><div><br /></div><div>I think this is a good time to blog because in about 5 minutes it will be my 22 BIRTHDAY.</div><div><br /></div><div>HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://www.glitchline.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/happybirthdaytome.jpg" /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">I'm</span> just thankful to see 22 years.... healthy and happy.</div><div><br /></div><div>Its been a tough 22 years no doubt BUT.. they've been mine and every day makes me a little better. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Don't</span> you think?</div><div><br /></div><div>Unlike my 21st, i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">don't</span> have much planned for this birthday. Just going to take it nice and easy tomorrow.... go get a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">mani</span> and a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">pedi</span>, a facial.. get some stuff waxed <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">LOL</span>...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Friday night om going to Party Party PARTY!! Haven't done that in a while.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I'll be back to blogging regularly next week. I've got a lot to tell ya.</div><div><br /></div><div>♥</div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-80417490017611646212010-02-09T16:32:00.000-08:002010-02-09T16:38:04.478-08:00Why wait?It's a shame that it takes someone to lose you to really value you. Especially when you put so much of yourself into that person, and they were reluctant to share their feelings with you is the reason you walked away.<div><br /></div><div>So went my day today. Im not even going to name who im reffering to. But we met for lunch today because i went to see the doctor. He basically told me everything i wish i'd heard.... a year ago.</div><div><br /></div><div>Too late, you think?</div><div><br /></div><div>Actually, it was good to hear it. Even tho i've already moved on and have no intention of our relationship to EVER be what it was before.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I think he told me everything now more for his benefit than mine. Which is healthy. For the both of us. He can FULLY move on without these things on his chest, and i can move on without having to still wonder what was going thru his mine during the hard times.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Its a shame tho. Had he told me how he felt then, who knows where we'd be now?</div><div><br /></div><div>I do believe everything happens for a reason.</div><div><br /></div><div>He needs to grow more, and so do i.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Just another day.</div><div><br /></div><div>♥<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-70586321074599504472010-02-06T06:49:00.000-08:002010-02-06T07:05:44.521-08:00Been gone for a minute. Part 2<div>OK, now on to the juicy parts.</div><div><br /></div><div>PD. *sigh* what a waste. Had <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">all</span> the looks and charm. He was perfect! But when it was time to put up or shut up, he could not keep up.</div><div><br /></div><div>I hate when people make empty promises, and boy, did he make <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">a lot</span> of them. Not only that, he started to reveal a real selfish, spoiled side of him that i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">wasn't</span> going to condone. He has a mother for that.</div><div><br /></div><div>Anyhow, he called me one day, after weeks of 2 word <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">BBMs</span> all jolly and shit, and asked me if i was seeing anyone. So, me being the bitch i can be on certain days said "yes" (knowing damn well i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">wasn't</span>) And he was like "oh okay cool, have you slept with him?"</div><div><br /></div><div>*blink*</div><div><br /></div><div>if i did or <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">didn't</span>, why should you care? You <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">haven't</span> paid me an iota of attention for over 3 months boo boo...</div><div><br /></div><div>So i said "yes i did, and recently at that". he got <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">real</span> quiet on the phone and then was like "oh <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">I'm</span> about to get my hair cut, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">I'll</span> call you back"</div><div><br /></div><div>thank goodness i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">didn't</span> hold my breath.</div><div><br /></div><div>SO about 3 days after my surgery he <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">BBMs</span> me saying he hopes <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">im</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">ok</span> and i told him i was fine. But he has this ANNOYING habit of asking a question and when you reciprocate, he never replies. After that day i had enough. I basically told him that if he <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">wasn't</span> man enough to handle what <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">I'd</span> told him or be civil enough to have an adult conversation with me than he needed not be on my BBM list. and with the swipe and click via my thumb he was deleted from my contact list and my life.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Now, on to #4</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm in love.</div><div><br /></div><div>there, i said it.</div><div><br /></div><div>But the crazy thing is, i think he's starting to fall too.</div><div><br /></div><div>Since Christmas things have been <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">soooooo</span> good. it <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">doesn't</span> even make sense.</div><div><br /></div><div>You probably all think <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">I'm</span> crazy for even bothering with him.. but hes changed. A LOT.</div><div><br /></div><div>Who am i to not except change? he's so much more compassionate, loving, i see him so often, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">I've</span> met more of his friends.</div><div><br /></div><div>we talk now. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">that's</span> what was missing before. it was all action and no talk. He's finally decided to let me in, and tell me how he really feels. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">I've</span> been able to get more out of him in the past 2 months than i have in the 2 years that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">I've</span> known him.</div><div><br /></div><div>I was talking to a friend of mine who does relationship counseling about my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">situation</span> with him. Ans she told me something that made a lot of sense.</div><div><br /></div><div>She said maybe things went sour in the beginning because you both <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">didn't</span> trust <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">each other</span>. Which is true. I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">didn't</span> trust him because i doubted him from the start.. i had the mindset that wasnt good enough, he cheat, things like that. and he <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">didn't</span> trust me for his own reasons. And this wasnt unknown to us, we told each other that we didn't trust one another. We both came from shitty past relationship situations. But over time he's realized that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_29">I'm</span> not there to trap him, or for his money or status. I like him for who he is.</div><div><br /></div><div>He told me the other day that when he's me he's always comfortable, calm and content. And i know <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_30">that's</span> a rarity for him because of the life he lives. </div><div><br /></div><div>Sometimes i even save conversations we have because i think to myself <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_31">there's</span> no way this is the same guy from last year.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm happy. And for what its worth, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_32">I'm</span> not banking on a relationship with him. what happens happens. </div><div><br /></div><div>I think that was MY problem before. i was so <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_33">gung</span> ho about being "attached". That was doing nothing but setting me up for failure from jump street.</div><div><br /></div><div>Say what you want about it, judge me, blah blah etc etc.. Frankly it <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_34">doesn't</span> matter.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;">I live my life for my happiness first. Other peoples opinions <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_35">don't</span> matter to me anymore.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; "><i><b><br /></b></i></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><i><b>“Be Who You Are and Say What You Feel Because Those Who Mind Don't Matter and Those Who Matter Don't Mind.”</b></i></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><i><b><br /></b></i></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><i><b>♥</b></i></span></span></span></div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-77921719616534668252010-02-06T06:26:00.000-08:002010-02-06T06:49:40.923-08:00Been gone for a minute. Part 1*clears throat* HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!<div><br /></div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">lol</span> had to be late, you know i work on West Indian people time, which is a about 2 weeks behind <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">CP</span> time.</div><div><br /></div><div>anyhow, Hi everyone! its been a while since <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">I've</span> blogged! i feel bad about it. I was actually thinking about blogging earlier this week, but of course something came up and prevented me from doing so.</div><div><br /></div><div>So much has happened since i last posted. Let me see if i can give you a rundown:</div><div><ol><li>i had another surgery. A week ago today to be exact.</li><li>left my job (<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">don't</span> worry, i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">wasn't</span> fired. See reason #1)</li><li>i got rid of PD. (<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">I'll</span> explain.)</li><li><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Newbs</span> and I are speaking again (oh, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">i'll</span> explain that too.)</li></ol><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Ok</span> so lets see....where do i begin?</div><div><br /></div><div>oh right. #1</div><div>can you believe its been 6 months since my last surgery ALREADY? yeah, me neither, time goes by when <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">you're</span> having fun. *snicker* But yes after multiple reschedules etc etc the good old doc took another chunk of my beloved right boob away *tear* BUT <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">I'll</span> be happy to announce that the problem area, the pigmentation that has plagued me for ALL of my life is <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">GONEEEEE</span> *does tootsie roll*</div><div><br /></div><div>I cried like a big ass baby at my post op visit last Tuesday. It was beautiful. </div><div><br /></div><div>Now all i need is for my 2 breasts to be the same size, and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">I'll</span> be perfect. Again :-)</div><div><br /></div><div>#2 The doctor kind of gave me an ultimatum when it was time for me to plan my surgery. you either A) have the surgery, go back to work after a week (which i did last time after he told me NOT to) get sick and have to have another <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">unnecessary</span> surgery to prevent what <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">could've</span> been prevented had i stayed my ass home or B) take a leave of absence and recovery properly.</div><div><br /></div><div>I chose B. I even one <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">upped</span> him, and handed in my resignation. ALL of my co-workers were <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">soo</span> unhappy to see me go! but i had to. Whenever i was sick, i was never really off because they'd call for my help regarding things at work. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">that's</span> part of the reason i went back to work so soon last time. But i said to myself this time "Self whens the last time you really REALLY took a break?" and self said "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">hmm</span> good question"</div><div><br /></div><div>SO as of right now <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">I'm</span> unemployed *GASP* <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">lol</span> but <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">I'm</span> not even stressing. my main <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">focus</span> right now is my health and recovery. I have money saved up (not to mention a real sexy tax return) that will cover my bills and expenses(or lack thereof) until <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">I'm</span> ready to work again</div><div><br /></div><div>which will probably be soon. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">I'm</span> not a homebody. At. ALL.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-85353744050092751532009-12-29T07:09:00.000-08:002009-12-29T07:18:20.724-08:00ok, im back to normal again.I really went off in my last post, didn't I? <br /><br />Its amazing how angry you can be in the heat of an argument.lol. I'm not upset anymore. Thank goodness. I don't like the angry me.<br /><br />I have been keeping my distance from the few men in my life that seem to be in heavy rotation as far as me being "situated". Technically, I'm not spoken for. But I do have feelings for each of them. And each set of feelings is completely different.<br /><br />Luckily I'm not trying to make anything out of any of these "relationships". I'm completely going with the flo. <br /><br />And NO, I'm not sleeping with any of them. That tends to mess things up. Lol.<br /><br />The only thing I'm kind of afraid of is possibly falling for them. Yes, them. I mean, its possible. They all have different qualities and different things about them that I'm attracted to and that I like. They all offer something different. <br /><br />As far as the new year goes, I'm not going to have any preconcieved notions about my relationship status. Its strictly going to be about me, my health and my happiness. Maybe more. <br /><br />Who knows?<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-54504932962668300822009-12-12T08:48:00.000-08:002009-12-12T10:37:46.325-08:00are committed relationships dead?What the hell does a woman have to do to find a man that<div><br /></div><div>A) does not already have a relationship in progress</div><div><br /></div><div>B) have baby mama drama</div><div><br /></div><div>C) <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">doesn't</span> want to fuck every girl in the world?</div><div><br /></div><div>I cant deal with men anymore. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">I'm</span> like "okay, if i give <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">so'n'so</span> so much time then <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">I'm</span> bound to be in good, right?</div><div><br /></div><div>NO.</div><div><br /></div><div>Everybody wants SOMETHING. Whether its money, all sex and no <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">commitment</span>, to boss you around.,..SOMETHING. Like COME ON ALREADY.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm kinda over this whole cycle i find myself being constantly pulled into. I'm a good person. I try to stay clear of any <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">type</span> of drama. but for some reason these <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">NIGGAS</span>(yeah, i said it) keep finding me and try to dog me the FUCK out.</div><div><br /></div><div>So you expect me to sleep with you, give you money, but we never do anything?</div><div><br /></div><div>So you expect me to sleep with you, and when your "girl <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">who's</span> not really my girl but shes still my girl" is in town i just disappear like its nothing?</div><div><br /></div><div>Do I Have some sort of sign on my damn forehead that attracts these assholes?</div><div><br /></div><div>Its like i need to be the anti-Christ to get anywhere with these people. Im so over this whole relationship thing its not even funny</div><div><br /></div><div>Things can go from sugar to shit in 0.05 seconds. And with that i am DONE.</div><div><br /></div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-91689903984150085422009-12-07T08:54:00.000-08:002009-12-07T09:00:09.414-08:00Time flies...So its already December. Wow. Where the hell did 2009 go? <br /><br />Personally I don't mind watching the bitch go. 2009 was a year for the books. And not in a good way. Between breakups, illness and funerals I couldn't catch a break!!!<br /><br />I'm not gonna be cliche and say "2010 is gonna be my year" because well, frankly I don't know if it really is. I'm going to try and make the best of the coming year. This includes completing surgery, returning to school full time and keeping far away from shitty ass males. <br /><br />That last one is going to be tricky. Not because I don't WANT to(we've all seen my track record....I need to) but because no one is who they really are until about 6 months to 2 years into a relationship lol.<br /><br />I started seeing someone new.. Shut up. <br /><br />I don't plan these things! They just happen.<br /><br />Pd is pretty freakin awesome. But in the back of my mind I can hear the tiny tick tock the let down clock counting down.<br /><br />Maybe I shouldn't. Blah.<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-8163557241143263742009-12-05T18:37:00.001-08:002009-12-05T18:57:57.186-08:00So i'm a little bored...I have time to kill.. so why not do one of these questionnaire <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">thingys</span>? <div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">ok</span>, here goes.</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px; font-family:Times, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><br />1. What is the color of your toothbrush? <b>Pur</b><b>ple</b><br />2. Name one person who made you smile today. <b>Jada</b><br />3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? <b>Washing my hair</b><br />4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? <b>Checking my email</b><br />5. What is your favorite candy bar? </span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>Twix</b></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><br />6. Have you ever been to a strip club? <b>Once.</b><br />7. What is the last thing you said aloud? <b>'I'm In the living room'</b><br />8. What is your favorite ice cream? <b>Butter Pecan</b><br />9. What was the last thing you had to drink? <b>Cranberry Grape juice</b><br />10. Do you like your wallet? <b>Yes, it has my life organized into nice little slots :-)</b><br />11. What was the last thing you ate? <b>A handful of Cap'n Crunch</b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><br />12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? <b>2 tops and a skirt</b><br />13. The last sporting event you watched? </span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>Lakers</b></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>/Heat game last night</b><br />14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? <b>Caramel Corn.</b><br />15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?<b> Vic</b><br />16. Ever go camping? <b>A few times at sleep away camp</b><br />17. Do you take vitamins daily? <b>Absolutely.</b><br />18. Do you go to church every Sunday? <b>Occasionally</b><br />19. Do you have a tan?<b> Nope. </b></span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>I'm</b></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b> dark </b></span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>enough</b></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b> </b></span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>lol</b></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><br />20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza? <b>Chinese, im lactose intolerant.</b><br />21. Do you drink your soda with a straw? <b>Yea. I think drinking from a bottle or a can isnt ladylike</b><br />22. What did your last text message say?<b> ...'Do you see the snow'</b><br />23. What are you doing tomorrow? <b>Sleep and nothing.</b><br />24. Favorite color? Purple<br />25. Look to your left; what do you see? <b>A laptop case and an iPod.</b><br />26. What color is your watch? <b>Havent worn one in 3 years</b><br />27. What do you think of when you hear “Australia”?<b> My Nana</b><br />28. Would you strip for money? <b>No..for fun? yes. LOL</b><br />29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive </span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;">thru</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;">?<b> Drive </b></span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><b>Thru</b></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC66CC;"><br />30. What is your favorite number? <b>25</b><br />31. Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone? <b>Reggie</b><br />32. Any plans today? <b>Might go out tonight, well see</b><br />33. In how many states have you lived? <b>3</b><br />34. Biggest annoyance right now?<b> Not being able to take a lengthy vacation</b><br />35. Last song listened to? <b>Winter Song- Sara Borealis</b><br />36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?<b> Yep</b><br />37. Do you have a maid service clean your house? <b>Yea but she's not from a service lol</b><br />38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?<b> During the day? Uggs. Ultimate comfort</b><br />39. Are you jealous of anyone? <b>No, cant think of anyone</b><br />40. Is anyone jealous of you? <b>Probably not</b><br />41. Do you love anyone? <b>Yep, lots<br /></b>42. Do any of your friends have children? <b>A few of them do</b><br />43. What do you usually do during the day? <b>Work. Hard</b><br />44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now? <b>I did, but not anymore</b><br />45. Do you use the word hello daily? <b>Does 'Hi' count? if so, yes.</b><br />46. What color is your car?<b> Blue</b><br />47. What size wedding ring do you wear? <b>I'm a 6</b><br />48. Are you thinking about someone right now? <b>Y</b><b>es i am..</b>.<br />49. Have you ever been to Six Flags? <b>I cant even count how many times lol </b><br />50. How did you get your worst scar? <b>Surgery. Emotional scars are a whole nother story...</b></span></span></span></div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-56804094536116703402009-11-17T08:17:00.000-08:002009-11-17T08:25:32.350-08:00that was easy.Ok so Newbs decided to show his ass, again. <br /><br />Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.<br /><br />I don't think there is enough space for me, him and his ego in a relationship, unless its on a hi and bye level.<br /><br />When you're not treated up to par you tend to not realize when there is that big ass neon sign saying DON'T DO IT YOU IDIOT! Because you're caught up in the moment. Well, at least that's my excuse.<br /><br />I'm not even going to go on about how much I hate him blah blah blah because you've all heard it before. But just as I managed to maintain 50 feet in my relationship with the loser, newbs is slitherin his way into that lane.<br /><br />I guess the saying "maybe god sends us bad guys so when we get a good one we can be thankful" is t r u e.<br /><br />As of now I'm chillin. PD and I are cool, which is nice. So I'm not alone. Remember, there is a difference between alone and lonely.<br /><br />We're going on a first "date" later this week(lol) I'll let you guys know how that goes.<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-22138447572617319502009-11-11T10:10:00.000-08:002009-11-11T15:11:14.995-08:00oye.<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Ok</span> so its been...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">idk</span> almost 2 weeks since <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">newbs</span> decided to reappear.<br /><br />And he won't go away.<br /><br />This has caused for me to sit and try to figure out...what is it that he wants?<br /><br />Its not like my love wasn't the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">ishhh</span>...(<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Lol</span>) but he can get <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">lovin</span> anywhere. Why is he bothering me?<br /><br />And to add to that. PD, the old/new <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">thang</span> is such a doll. But when I'm at work, he's free and vice <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">versa</span>. So we really don't get to see <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">eachother</span> a lot.<br /><br />He's one of those guys that you kinda dream about. Real affectionate and all that other <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">hodge</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">podge</span>. But then again, so was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Newbs</span> in the beginning.<br /><br />There are nights where I find myself ignoring the both of them. Because I find myself in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">dack</span> overload. The phone calls, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">bbms</span>, pictures. (LORD the PICTURES) can be a bit overwhelming at times.<br /><br />Maybe its because i was so used to only Loser or No one approaching me, this is all new to me.<br /><br />I think I can handle it.<br /><br />The only thing that I'm trying to get a hold onto is my Ever present attraction to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">newbs</span> and my newly developed attraction to PD.<br /><br />What the HELL am I to do?!? *pulls hair*<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-29364846663556456402009-10-29T06:28:00.000-07:002009-11-11T15:11:34.851-08:00hold the damn presses!So yesterday was going just fine and dandy until right after I blogged. My phone vibrated and I figured it was a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">bbm</span> so I disregarded it until I was finished some paperwork.why when I looked to see who it was it was a text. From <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">NEWBS</span>.<br /><br />Yes, the same <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Newbs</span> who I said I was done with because he chose a very inappropriate time to disrespect me.<br /><br />Yes, the same <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Newbs</span> who I haven't spoken to since October 1st, the night we had that dispute in my car.<br /><br />He had the nerve to hit me up like everything was peaches and damn cream. I couldn't believe it. Then had the nerve to say "I still feel some kind of way" yea? <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Cuz</span> I told you you weren't shit or <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">cuz</span> I said I don't want to love someone like you, who disregards my feelings to prove a point.<br /><br />I asked him if he wanted to talk any problems he had out with me, because last time I checked I wasn't a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">fuckin</span> mind reader. Let me know how u feel. I don't assume.<br /><br />I'm still waiting to hear from him. I honestly hope he knows I don't plan on waiting forever. I all but told him out relationship can cease where it stands.<br /><br />I have no problem moving on with my life.<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-57262419980910788262009-10-28T07:58:00.000-07:002009-10-28T08:18:17.134-07:00keepin u currentSo I've been thinkin about moving off on my own. Way from most of the family to Manhattan. Yes the big cityyyy.<br /><br />in other news. I've been dreamin a lot about Newbs (aka Assholus Majorous) lately. I don't know if maybe my heart is trying to drop my mind hints. Yea I miss him, but that motherfucker will have to seek me out and beg for my forgiveness before I will even TALK to his ass. Hmmphf. Let he try wid duh!<br /><br />This rain has made me want t cuff like crazy!<br /><br />(Cuff, Cuffin: means to be boo'd up for all you non-New Yorkers)<br /><br />I've been enjoyin thecompany of my old/new friend. I'm not looking for anything, and neither is he which is PERFECT. We talk and enjoy eachother company. Which is refreshing. <br /><br />P.S. Halloween is saturday. I will get to wear my costume from last year. Didn't have it on for long if u catch my drift lol.<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-45496896389078558742009-10-20T06:26:00.000-07:002009-10-20T06:33:34.713-07:00hmmLately I've been trying to think of what I plan to change about myself/ my life in the coming year. To be honest with you all, 2009 couldn't end fast enough for me. Its been such a TRYING year to say the least.<br /><br />Between new life, death, surgery, loves found and lost... It was a rollercoaster. But I digress.<br /><br />I was able to fulfill my resolution from last year and made 2009 my year to strictly do me. If I wanted it done I did it. Even if I didn't succeed(which was a rare occuance) I can honestly say that I tried. I did a complete personal revamp and I must say that I'm happy with the new me.<br /><br /><br />As far as 2010 goes, my 2 main goals are to finish surgery and go back to school *crosses fingers*<br /><br />In reference to my love/personal life, I'm not going to make any plans in particular. I'm just going to ride the wave. I'm 21 for crying out loud! Lol. If love comes my way, great. But I'm sure as hell not going to go look for that bitch, let it find me. Lol<br /><br />Let's see how this goes.<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-29291256992409075462009-10-19T08:22:00.000-07:002009-10-19T08:29:03.123-07:00My aunt passed 4am this morning after battling breast cancer for two years. It was so hard for me to see my grandmother, whose birthday was yesterday hear that she was ill. My family has had to bury 5 members this year. <br /><br /><br />Every morning I wake up and wonder if the day ahead will be better or worse than the day before. <br /><br />My health is in better shape, but my heart is heavy. I'm tired. I put on a smile everyday even when I want to cry. I know that there's someone out there that has it worse than I do. I wish I could meet them so I can ask how they do it.<br /><br />For all you women ages 35 and up PLEASE GO GET YOUR MAMMOGRAM! Early detction saves lives. Don't be afraid. Because when its too late, its too late.<br /><br />If you need any information regarding being screened, feel free to contact me.Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-84187462775596712762009-10-17T20:02:00.000-07:002009-10-17T20:14:20.306-07:00its been a while....I'm still alive and kickin blog world. I haven't blogged in 2 months. I've been so busy. Between work and my personal life. A lot has changed in such a short period of time I've really had to sit and evaluate the path that I was taking and whether it was the right one for me.<br /><br />I lost an aunt to terminal cancer at the beginning of the month. And today I found out that another aunt that has breast cancer is in hospice.<br /><br />Newbs and are officially over. I can tell you all this because we haven't spoken in over 2 weeks. He chose a very inappropriate time to disrespect me after we had a minor argument in my car. I love that man to pieces. But I refuse to let him think that he can treat me like shit to get his point across. If he was willing to let a good woman like me walk away because of his own cockiness and selfish pride than so be it.<br /><br />I've moved on from him. I cried and so on. Then someone came around and has been treating me so well I can say that I believe that maybe newbs was a building block for my confidence. He wasn't the finishline, just a checkpoint.<br /><br />Recently I've realized how many people I've let take advantage of my kindness. This revelation doesn't necessarily mean that I'm not going to continue to be who I am and always give 1000%. It just means that I now know what I honesty deserve and what I am too good to have to deal with.<br /><br />Everyday is a challenge. And everyday I look forward to completing whatever task is at hand. Because I could be off way worse than I am. <br /><br />Until tomorrow... ♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-4019056474619303932009-08-31T05:47:00.000-07:002009-08-31T06:02:07.611-07:00A little update<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">OK</span> so i know that I've been MIA for a while and i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">apologize</span> dearly. Its just that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">I've</span> been really really busy. But <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">I've</span> been around and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">I've</span> kept saying that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">I'm</span> going to blog. So <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">I'll</span> do it now while the office is quiet.<br /><br />So far I've been recovering well from my surgeries. I've yet to make a follow up with my PS but i will in due time. I still get pains every now and then but i usually hot water treat them and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">I'm</span> good to go. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">I'm</span> not too fond of pills anymore <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">lol</span>.<br /><br />I've been hitting the gym like a maniac. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">I'm</span> talking 5 days a week, for about 3 hours a day. Yeah, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">I'm</span> that determined to get not only my mid, but my body right as well.<br /><br />Lets not forget about how IN LOVE i am. With <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">Newbs</span>(<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">newbie's</span> new name) Like i really love him. And he knows. And we're cool with that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">lol</span>. I try to spend as much time with him as possible because <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">I'm</span> always busy and he's always busy, but i love the time we have together. no matter if its at 2am or 2 pm.<br /><br />Loser is still around. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">that's</span> still my <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">BFF</span>. no matter what. But lately our friendship has been a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">lil</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">bleh</span>. we still hang, but i feel like were getting distant. but at this point in my life i refuse to chase someone for any reason but my own happiness. and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">I'm</span> happy. truly, genuinely happy with where i am right now.<br /><br />On another note. Yesterday was the anniversary of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">Brandon's</span> death. and i was such a zombie. i kept having dreams about the night i found out he died. so i tried to keep myself as busy as possible.<br /><br />But back to the happy tunes: i cant believe the summer is over! I mean, i spent most of it sick and shut in, so i guess i <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">couldnt</span> of expected it to wait for me to get better <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">lol</span>. I did enjoy the time i did use <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">recreationally</span> tho.<br /><br />Well, that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">i'l</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">im</span> going to blabber about for now...Until later everyone.<br /><br />♥Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-26023444545376921932009-08-07T06:49:00.000-07:002009-08-07T06:57:23.921-07:00NY Craigslist..oyeOK, its been a while since I've posted ANYTHING, let alone a good ole NY CL men seeking women ad. I stumbled upon this scholar and my eyes sprang tears from the beauty of his writing<br /><br />Harvard Scholarship Recipient game proper.<br /><br />Lets see how many grammatical errors one can make. Follow along children:<br /><br /><strong>Whats next girls with <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0"><em>bullethole's</em></span> and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1"><em>stabe</em></span> Wounds? - 30 (Brooklyn)</strong><br /><br />I've Posted a few times on Cl and Got some creepy Women replying To my ad.I'm not saying I'm god's gift to Women or it's all about looks,but be realistic When replying to me. I'm Not Looking for a(<em><strong> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Interacial</span></strong></em> relationship) I like women who share many of the same cultural values,<strong><em><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">psyical</span> </em></strong>traits and <em><strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Experieances</span> </strong></em>as myself.No I'm not Racist so if your a White nationalist Nut or some Minority with a bad <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5"><strong><em>addituide</em></strong></span> keep it to your self I don't care what You have to say.I'm not into <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">BBW</span>,BIG,THICK or what ever you want to call it. I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7"><em><strong>perfere</strong></em></span> Petite or athletic Builds and Women with in my age<em><strong> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">demograpic</span></strong></em> Having said all That .I'm looking to meet a Mature,Grounded Woman,but at the same time someone who is not To pretentious and is very much down to Earth.I feel it's very Healthy to have a partner someone Whose Got my back when things are good or Bad and I do the same for them.I'm not Interested in one night stands(Well, maybe If your really Hot and can help move me up the <em><strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">socio</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">ecconomic</span></strong></em> ladder) <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Hahha</span>.I would like to get married and have kids one day,but Hey It would even be great to just meet someone Who I can learn from and Grow with That shares a Attraction with one another.I'm trying Not to be To serious about Things Because Good things come and go out of our lives . I had the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12"><em><strong>beauitfull</strong></em></span> girlfriend,but she was To Psycho and even made me a little Psycho. I had The Hot shot Job,but Got Laid off due the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13"><strong><em>Eccomeny</em></strong></span>.Now I'm Working 10 hours more a week at a Job I'm over <em><strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">Quilified</span> </strong></em>for just To make a living that is not <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15"><em><strong>laughiable</strong></em></span>. I try not to be To <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16"><em><strong>pridefull</strong></em></span> or to serious these days Because I want To Enjoy life and What it has To offer.I don't mean partying,Drinking or Clubbing I hate that stuff. I mean Learning,Evolving,Building<em><strong> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">meaningfull</span></strong></em> relationships with people.I'm a Guy whose had a very colorful past and has Lots of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18"><em><strong>Crazzy</strong></em></span> stories To tell.My<em> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19"><strong>Experieances</strong></span></em> are what give me a <em><strong><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">certian</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">insite</span>,<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">stranth</span></strong></em> and Drive To deal with and <strong><em>over <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">comethings</span></em></strong>. so, If you like what you see or just want to know more Drop me a line with a picture and I will get back to you<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Instead of searching for a woman, he needs to be searching for a tutor. And he was goin in too.. For shame.Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-33902359807569726392009-07-07T06:48:00.000-07:002009-11-11T15:11:56.433-08:00Im BAAaaaAaAaCk!whew enough of all these somber ass posts <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> back to being good ole C. A.<br /><br />*waits for applause to end*<br /><br />::side note:: <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">every time</span> i see the word applause i think apple sauce <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">LOL</span><br /><br /><br />Anyways... <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Ive</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">been</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">recuperating</span> from my surgery i had done 2 weeks ago. And boy did them drugs have me like one of my <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">clients</span>! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">lmao</span> i was half sleep half slurring all over the damn place.<br /><br />But the swelling is going down, and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">ive</span> decided to step away from the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Valium</span> & <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">percocets</span> *temporary sad face* <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">lol</span>.<br /><br />Everything on the other hand is going...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">aight</span>.. me and the "boo" going <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">thru</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">lil</span> rough patch right now, but <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">im</span> willing to put in the effort to make it work. But if he acts up my ass is GONE. Its July. '<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">Tis</span> the season to not being crying over no man. Its the season to get my sexy on. * looks down @ flat tummy with a SMILE* <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">LOL</span><br /><br /><br />p.s <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">omg</span> i did my passport and that shit is so thick now you can slice bread with the damn pages <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">LAWD</span>. But my pic is rather ravishing.. compared to that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">horrid</span> ass driver license pic <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">im</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">stil</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">walkin</span> around with <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">lololol</span><br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">ok</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">im</span> done chatting for now. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_29">ttyl</span>. *<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_30">besos</span>*Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-80440067183002973062009-06-25T07:32:00.000-07:002009-06-25T07:37:14.023-07:00One Day at a Time..so its been 3 weeks since my loss.. and i must admit im doing alot better. Better than i expected to be doing. Ive finally come out of my house. Im working again..<br /><br />I even planned a trip to Jamaica.<br /><br />i figured that harping on the situation wont change the outcome, so i had to pick myself up and move on.<br /><br />Me and my baby are still holding on strong.<br /><br />Im even having my surgery done this saturday. Its all one big staircase that im determind to reach the top of.<br /><br />Thanks to everybody who showed me support over these last couple of weeks. As much as i thought i needed to go thru it along, sometimes you just need that shoulder, advice, or ear to cheer you on to victory<br /><br />:-)Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-51249524089853247682009-06-02T05:49:00.000-07:002009-06-02T09:08:14.637-07:00Someone call me a young priest and an old priest.cuz this negrah is in need of some haysoose christo in his life. At least he opted for boxer-briefs this time. <br /><br />I wonder whats going thru the cameraman's mind during all o this.<br /><br />please prep for a plethora of KFC grilled chicken chest boys gettin it on 'n Poppaannnn with some new household furniture. Watch your back Eureka vacuum cleaner.<br /><br /><object width="560" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/cfwoUNwMR_E&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/cfwoUNwMR_E&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />R.I.P. folding chair *tear* you will be missed.Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-41861742292354063122009-06-01T12:17:00.000-07:002009-06-01T12:23:06.501-07:00NY Craigslist... LAWDlmao. i hate my cousin SO EFFIN MUCH!!<br /><br />she and i have asecret affair with the men seeking men ads on NY Craigslist.<br /><br />*le frackin sigh* @ this ish right heh so:<br /><br /><strong>watch hot porn on my video ipod while i suck ur dick in ur car (rp, mv, fh - in your car)</strong><br /><strong></strong><br />hey guys. i'm looking for a local guy or a guy driving through the area who wants their dick sucked while they enjoy hot straight porn on my video ipod. its very tiny but large screen so its small & discreet. pick me up, park on a nearby street, whip it out, get sucked til u cum in my mouth, i swallow, u drop me off back where u picked me up, we part. no strings. no drama. no chat. just enjoy some hot straight porn while u enjoy my slutty mouth. gay/bi/straight whatever. single/divorced/engaged whatever. none of that matters. all races welcome. all body types welcome. all dick sizes welcome. all ages welcome (but you MUST be over 25 only). so all u need is a car & a dick. reply & lets plan it. this ad is for anytime. you can call me nasty names while you fuck my mouth. it just gets me in a sluttier mood.<br /><br /><br />i thought that was the worst until:<br /><br /><strong>I GOT HERPES FROM...<br /></strong>Date: 2009-05-29, 5:54PM EDT<br /><br />one of the guys on this site that wants you to be generous/gives massages. i asked beforehand if he was clean and he swore he was just tested for hiv and stds and was clean. i found out yesterday that i have herpes (which by the way, is INcurable, and spreadable even if you don't have any sores). i confronted him about it, and he said, oh well-- i hoped you wouldn't get it. turns out he knows he has it, but he doesn't care since he says that if someone is stupid enough to have sex for money, they "deserve it." he even admitted he's given it to several guys, and just laughs about it! he seemed so nice it was hard to believe he's actually a complete low life (in retrospect, it shouldn't be shocking since he is a whore...). now for the rest of my life i'm gonna have to tell anyone i'm about to have sex with that i may give this to them (condoms help a lot from spreading it, but are not 100% since ball sacks often have infected skin cells). all because of one stupid sex encounter! makes me wonder how many other guys (whores or not) are infected since this site is very "incestuous")<br /><br /> so i'm warning you all-- DON'T PAY FOR SEX FROM ANYONE ON THIS SITE! is it really worth it?!!<br /><br /><br />LMAO..it took you getting BURNED to figure this out GENIASS?Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-53154933799323826442009-06-01T08:40:00.000-07:002009-06-01T10:08:54.168-07:00Fallen...and i cant get up*sigh* i think <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> falling in love with newbie. its CRAZY to me too. i cant even tell you WHEN it happened, but i know its happening. and at this point, i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">don't</span> even want to fight it anymore. I mean, after everything i went <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">thru</span> with Loser i was like " oh hell no <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Lucifer</span> will be the UPS delivery man before i get into anything with anyone" and now <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">I'm</span> like, head over heels in love with this guy.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">I'm</span> not gonna go say he "perfect, & everything i can ask for" because all that shit is for Brenda Jackson novels. We fight, he gets me upset and the works, but he's a man, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">that's</span> his job . <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">LOL</span>. but at the end of the day, when <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">I'm</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">layin</span> in my bed, and i think about him, he hits me up. Its like he knows, that when <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">I'm</span> with him, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">im</span> content. All the drama and the stress is out the door. He makes me happy. When <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">I'm</span> with him, i feel sexy, i feel confident, i feel how a woman should feel when shes in a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">special</span> situation with someone.<br /><br />and i feel like he knows. i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">don't</span> know if i should tell him straight out. but i KNOW he knows. He's even dropped the "L" word a few weeks ago and i kind of giggled it off.<br /><br />Call me a fool, i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">don't</span> care. You never know.Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-52813214416344027362009-05-29T06:35:00.000-07:002009-05-29T06:46:25.652-07:00Sexy Spec eat yo heart out.*sighs* <a href="http://www.crunktastical.net/">C+D</a> can burn in hell for this shit right here.<br /><br />Spectackylar from Pretty Ricky Ricky Rickay has been seen across the nation slow grinding his way into Boy George's heart all week. Had the nerve to call out other male artists in an all out boi pucci poppin competition and all. but i dont think his bird chested ass was ready for this challenge.<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/pSoiau6kaYo&hl=en&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/pSoiau6kaYo&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Spec, you got served.Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9218994212343346493.post-74428083067561616092009-05-27T12:15:00.000-07:002009-05-27T12:53:38.034-07:00Annoying Co-Workers 101<div><br /><div>*sigh* i have this ONE coworker that is absolutely the WORST person that should have a job whatsoever. She is the slowest, most idiotic person i have ever met. I call her, Pepper Ann. (the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">resemblance</span> is uncanny i tell ya)<br /></div><a href="http://www.silverchaos2k.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/02/pepperann.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 250px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 141px" alt="" src="http://www.silverchaos2k.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/02/pepperann.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div>It never ceases to amaze me how slow she is. Everyday i try to find reason for her mental status and say maybe she has a disability, and she cant help it. But no, shes just an idiot. </div><br /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div>How would you feel if someone asked you the same question, every day, day by day, with a straight face. Screw everyday, sometimes she'll ask me a question that i just answered about 15-20 prior to her asking me now. All i can do is give her the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Kool</span> Aid look, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">affectionately</span> named after <a href="http://youknowyoudeadazzwrong.blogspot.com/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Aunty</span> Mo</a><a href="http://i407.photobucket.com/albums/pp158/durtymo/28wkl15.gif"><img style="WIDTH: 257px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 228px" alt="" src="http://i407.photobucket.com/albums/pp158/durtymo/28wkl15.gif" border="0" /></a> because <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">I'm</span> tired of being a walking tape recorder. Like today. she asked me for a sheet. I gave her like 20 copies of said sheet so she <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">wouldn't</span> have to ask me for anymore. She went to her office, i guess she had a piece of her beloved ham (<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">dont</span> even get me started) and had the GALL to come back and ask for that paper AGAIN. I was like "<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">um</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">didn't</span> i just give you a stack?".. And of course, her answer was "O yeah" i swear if she says O yeah one more time the big <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">kool</span> aid is gonna bust <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">thru</span> my office door. </div><a href="http://www.mediabistro.com/unbeige/original/koolaid.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 246px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 176px" alt="" src="http://www.mediabistro.com/unbeige/original/koolaid.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://www.mediabistro.com/unbeige/original/koolaid.jpg"></a><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div>*sigh*</div><br /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">OK</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">I'm</span> done ranting now.</div></div>Lexihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17679851416080432743noreply@blogger.com1