Tuesday, November 17, 2009

that was easy.

Ok so Newbs decided to show his ass, again.

Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

I don't think there is enough space for me, him and his ego in a relationship, unless its on a hi and bye level.

When you're not treated up to par you tend to not realize when there is that big ass neon sign saying DON'T DO IT YOU IDIOT! Because you're caught up in the moment. Well, at least that's my excuse.

I'm not even going to go on about how much I hate him blah blah blah because you've all heard it before. But just as I managed to maintain 50 feet in my relationship with the loser, newbs is slitherin his way into that lane.

I guess the saying "maybe god sends us bad guys so when we get a good one we can be thankful" is t r u e.

As of now I'm chillin. PD and I are cool, which is nice. So I'm not alone. Remember, there is a difference between alone and lonely.

We're going on a first "date" later this week(lol) I'll let you guys know how that goes.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Ok so its been...idk almost 2 weeks since newbs decided to reappear.

And he won't go away.

This has caused for me to sit and try to figure out...what is it that he wants?

Its not like my love wasn't the ishhh...(Lol) but he can get lovin anywhere. Why is he bothering me?

And to add to that. PD, the old/new thang is such a doll. But when I'm at work, he's free and vice versa. So we really don't get to see eachother a lot.

He's one of those guys that you kinda dream about. Real affectionate and all that other hodge podge. But then again, so was Newbs in the beginning.

There are nights where I find myself ignoring the both of them. Because I find myself in dack overload. The phone calls, bbms, pictures. (LORD the PICTURES) can be a bit overwhelming at times.

Maybe its because i was so used to only Loser or No one approaching me, this is all new to me.

I think I can handle it.

The only thing that I'm trying to get a hold onto is my Ever present attraction to newbs and my newly developed attraction to PD.

What the HELL am I to do?!? *pulls hair*