How???

Lately, I've been asking myself a lot of questions that start with that very word. "HOW?"

How do you support someone you care about when they push you away at every open opportunity?

It IS hurtful when someone you love takes out their frustrations on you. Especially if you didn't do anything wrong, and all you want to do is be comforting.

As the type of person i am, i don't like to see the people i love and care about suffer. But at the same time, i cant just continue to be the doormat you rub your feet on after coming in from a storm.

When will people see that it's behavior like that that will push a good person away.. possibly forever?

I really wish the person that this was geared to could understand that their actions are slowly but surely making me want to X them out of my life forever..

Nothing i hate more than to be built up just to be let down.

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Annoying Co-Workers 101

*sigh* i have this ONE coworker that is absolutely the WORST person that should have a job whatsoever. She is the slowest, most idiotic person i have ever met. I call her, Pepper Ann. (the resemblance is uncanny i tell ya)

It never ceases to amaze me how slow she is. Everyday i try to find reason for her mental status and say maybe she has a disability, and she cant help it. But no, shes just an idiot.

How would you feel if someone asked you the same question, every day, day by day, with a straight face. Screw everyday, sometimes she'll ask me a question that i just answered about 15-20 prior to her asking me now. All i can do is give her the Kool Aid look, affectionately named after Aunty Mo because I'm tired of being a walking tape recorder. Like today. she asked me for a sheet. I gave her like 20 copies of said sheet so she wouldn't have to ask me for anymore. She went to her office, i guess she had a piece of her beloved ham (dont even get me started) and had the GALL to come back and ask for that paper AGAIN. I was like "um, didn't i just give you a stack?".. And of course, her answer was "O yeah" i swear if she says O yeah one more time the big kool aid is gonna bust thru my office door.

*sigh*

OK, I'm done ranting now.

Dudes hate too,..

i bumped into the loser this weekend. so we're back on civil terms. DO NOT MISTAKE THIS FOR SCREWING...i said CIVIL. lol. i can have a moderate conversation with him without wanting to toss him or my blackberry out of a window.

Anywho, remember Jack & Joe? (see old posts) Well, i was twistin Jack's new growth and the loser came up. Idk WHY Jack & Joe ride the losers cock so damn hard. But they seem to think im makin a big mistake by starting somethin with my Newbie. They only saw him once, the day after christmas when i asked Joe to take me to get him since i didnt have my car.

Now, Newbie is very humble, down to earth. So he said whats up to them and talked to me the whole 5 minute ride, which is fine, cuz i hate a man who doesnt know how to shut the fuck up.

So last night, Jack is like " i dont like that dude (newbie)" and im like, why? he couldnt give me a straight answer. But im sre it has to do with the fact that i refused to ever give Jack access to my sin bin, and i let Newbie take a dip in it. (not that they kno that)

but ever since i started talkin to newbie jack & joe, who dont kno him from a glass of water, got shit to say. Askin me questions like "where he live?" "where he work?" Newbie has his own crib, and a great job. Joe is in the military and Jack is too tempermental to ever keep a freakin job....oh wait, he's an "artist" both live with mommy or fam. Now, dont get me wrong, i still chill @ home, but i dont say shit about the kinda chicks they go after...lol . Hate hate hate thats all i see and hear when they try to "compare" newbie to the loser.

whateveerrrr lolol

I Hate....

i need to air out some of the things i really hate.. here we go lol

-open-toe shoes worn with stockings.

- people over the age of 25 with Sidekicks.

-Manpris. If your going to wear shorts, wear shorts. If your going to wear long pants, wear long pants. THERE IS NO MIDDLE GROUND.

-The McDonalds on Avenue H. I swear everyone who works there is special. They move slow, forget your order..Just a mess.

-Girls who wear eyeshadow wrong.

-People who wear the exact outfit on a display mannequin. Now everyone knows its from H&M.

-Glasses with no lense.

-People who walk slow then abruptly stop on a busy street or in the train station.

-People who sit with their legs wide open on a crowded train, taking up 2 seats.

-Men who don't give their seats to elderly, pregnant or women with babies.

-People who yell into their cellphones.

-Sunglasses, giant pocketbooks/purses/hanbags, fur coats, & bluetooth headsets in the club

-People who sing a song mad loud with the wrong lyrics.

- When natural hair and weave dont match(texture, color, or both)

- people who drive slow, then speed up at the yellow causing you to be stuck at the light

-People who dont move to the back of th bus.

-When people act ghetto/loud/obnoxious in a public area.

-When people assume everyone in/from Brooklyn knows eachother.

-When you tell someone you're West Indian and they automatically think you're Jamaican or Haitian.

-When you go shopping and a person puts something down, and you pick it up, and they go back and pick up that same item because you did.

-When people stare at the menu forever at McDonalds.

-People who act extra in the club(throwin money *eye roll*, splitting)

-When you tell somebody youre gonna call them back and they call you 5 minutes later like, "why you aint call me back?"

-Leather bombers with cartoon characters on them.

-Overweight girls who tuck their shirts into their jeans and pull the belt so tight the gut hides the belt.

-People who feel the need to share what their shit is and how much it costs in pictures.

-People who listen to music/ringtones without headphones in public.

-Cracked, chapped, peeling lips.

-People who dont like something but do it or like it because you say you do.


LOL Sorry this list has been building..and will continue to grow.

You have NO tact.

You know what? i'm bout 3 seconds from putting my foot up the next bitch ass that tries to gimme some nasty look when im out with my "male" (lol)

Have some fucking respect. You see me with him. You're going to have the audacity to give him sexy eye while he sitting RIGHT next to me? You got me mixed up boo boo..Dont let this prissy look fool you.. Cuz i will snatch this hat off my mother fucking head, take off this cute lil sweater and beat you like you stole from my nana.

Contrary to the previous paragraph, i am not a violent person. But blatant disrespect like that will not be tolerated, in any way, shape or form. What makes it worse is that before he came she kept watching me, every time i look up me and her eyes make four...I mean, if you like what i'm wearing, compliment me. if you dont, turn the fuck away... But dont try to stare me down and then proceed to foam at the mouth when my man shows up. If she was a dime, honestly, i would've been flattered. But she was so washed up...She was doing me an injustice by focusing her attention on us...I was too happy when she finally decided to stop breaking her neck and went about her business...

WHEW that felt GOOD to get off my chest

Thank goodness he wasnt paying her any mind(from what i saw), But being in the mood i've been in lately, all i need is there to be no cereal in the cupboard, and im bout ready to commit a 187 on somebody.