Lately, I've been asking myself a lot of questions that start with that very word. "HOW?"
Monday, March 29, 2010
How???
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Labels: life, moving on, rant, reality, relationships, women
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Why wait?
It's a shame that it takes someone to lose you to really value you. Especially when you put so much of yourself into that person, and they were reluctant to share their feelings with you is the reason you walked away.
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Saturday, February 6, 2010
Been gone for a minute. Part 1
*clears throat* HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
- i had another surgery. A week ago today to be exact.
- left my job (don't worry, i wasn't fired. See reason #1)
- i got rid of PD. (I'll explain.)
- Newbs and I are speaking again (oh, i'll explain that too.)
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Labels: back on my BS, its about me, life, new beginnings
Monday, August 31, 2009
A little update
OK so i know that I've been MIA for a while and i apologize dearly. Its just that I've been really really busy. But I've been around and I've kept saying that I'm going to blog. So I'll do it now while the office is quiet.
So far I've been recovering well from my surgeries. I've yet to make a follow up with my PS but i will in due time. I still get pains every now and then but i usually hot water treat them and I'm good to go. I'm not too fond of pills anymore lol.
I've been hitting the gym like a maniac. I'm talking 5 days a week, for about 3 hours a day. Yeah, I'm that determined to get not only my mid, but my body right as well.
Lets not forget about how IN LOVE i am. With Newbs(newbie's new name) Like i really love him. And he knows. And we're cool with that lol. I try to spend as much time with him as possible because I'm always busy and he's always busy, but i love the time we have together. no matter if its at 2am or 2 pm.
Loser is still around. that's still my BFF. no matter what. But lately our friendship has been a lil bleh. we still hang, but i feel like were getting distant. but at this point in my life i refuse to chase someone for any reason but my own happiness. and I'm happy. truly, genuinely happy with where i am right now.
On another note. Yesterday was the anniversary of Brandon's death. and i was such a zombie. i kept having dreams about the night i found out he died. so i tried to keep myself as busy as possible.
But back to the happy tunes: i cant believe the summer is over! I mean, i spent most of it sick and shut in, so i guess i couldnt of expected it to wait for me to get better lol. I did enjoy the time i did use recreationally tho.
Well, that i'l im going to blabber about for now...Until later everyone.
♥
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Labels: its about me, life, love, moving on, this week
Monday, April 20, 2009
10 things i believe i know about men.
10) Men sometimes lie because it’s easier than telling the truth.
This is pretty much self explainitory. The funny thing is, i can usually tell when their lying. but i never say anything. i prefer to let them believe they got away with it and then use it against them at a later date. (lol)
9) Men like to gossip just as much as women do.
ABSOLUTELY. Having Jack & Joe as friends ive seen this front han. They talk about everybody's situation, how they wouldve handled it, etc etc. like old women on a stoop its hilarious. and when you tell them they're gossiping they deny it.
8) Men are bad at remembering dates.
Unless it has something to do with them. My dad couldnt even remember my sisters birthday for cryin out loud.
7) Men are scared of the term forever.
The minute you say "we'll be togethere forever" he's already half way out of the door. The only time they seem to like it is during sex lol "this is yours forever!"
6) Men don’t want to admit it, but they need women in their lives.
The same go for women. Sometimes they hate the fact that the NEED us, but they do. And not even for major things. the little things, like giving him little massages, cooking for him, umm rockin the mic...it all matters to them as much as they try to deny it.
5) Men take sports seriously.
Conversations during game time is an absolute no-no. God forbid you tell him you want to go out during the playoffs. Yesterday i slept through a zilllion games because well. i couldnt deal with it lol. And lets not mention when i almost got body slammed out of excitement when the Giants won the superbowl.
4) Men can’t take hints.
Dont even bother droppng any. If you want to say something, s-p-e-l-l-i-t-o-u-t. Because more then likely they'll misconstrue your hint, and it will backfire on you.
3) Men are visual beings.
This is the reason they like porn, strip clubs, or just to see you do a lil sum'n sum'n freaky for them every now and then. A mans mind is a visual playground. If you talk dirty to your man on the phone, there is a guarantee he has his thoughts going south, because he can mentally picture you doing what you say youre doing.
2) Men care what others think of them, and even dress up for others.
Even though they may not say it, they are. Any male ive been acquainted with has been almost as much into fashion as me. Making sure their hair is always cut, nails are always clean. When they go out, they make sure their outfit is on point, cologne smelling good, everything. And trust me its well appreciated.
1) Men can’t help but check out other women.
And that is OK. shit, if she's fine, im looking too! Its a natural reaction for men.I dont understand why chics get so angry when their man takes a peek at another girl. HE'S WITH YOU!! let him look all he wants. Some of them even try to deny it which is funny cause at the end of the day he's giving you the goods, so obviously you have something he likes.
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Labels: life, men, reality, relationships, women
Thursday, March 19, 2009
it's about me now II
so its day 4 in my "silent treatment" by the loser. and still no effects. i've tried to contact him a few times, and no answer. so im officially finito. got other things to worry about.....like my TRIP! whew in 7 days i will be makin it rain on the Las Vegas strip!!! i dont lost my mind buying shoes and outfits for my lil mini vacay....i even decided to complete my life transformation with a new haircut and all..
im not letting him get me down, as much as he would like to lol. And everyday i get the cold shoulder from him, i get the warm hug from my new "boo" ( who really isnt "new" per se but we're closer now than we were before)
im feelin like a milli a milli a milli. lol
p.s. Im feelin The Dream's new album.. Fancy & Right Side of Ya Brain are on heavy iPod rotation.
Posted by Lexi at 7:24 AM 2 comments
Labels: its about me, life, new beginnings, relationships
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Is this how it is?
So now that I'm back on my single grind, me and my "ex" had a discussion about how to date.
He was saying that he found it ok to talk to 5 different girls, with no intention to date any of them. This is how it went:
Me: "so, if you wanna start dating one of them, how do you let the others know?"
Him: "i don't."
Me: "you..don't.."
Him : "na, not if they don't ask"
Me: laughs " so, if she doesn't ask if you're talking to anyone you wont say anything? what girl is gonna ask u if u chillin with anyone if y'all were talkin and now ur dating?"
Him thinks "na, i don't mean it like that"
Me: "yea you do. and then you're gonna bitch and moan that she always questions you, yadda yadda... that's the worse way to go into a relationship"
Him: i know, but i wanna exercise all of my options before i make a commitment"
Me: "right..and how many successful relationships do you have under your belt?"
.....
Posted by Lexi at 7:52 AM 3 comments
Labels: life, men, reality, relationships, women
Thursday, January 22, 2009
How I Feel....
I'm not really one to express myself openly, but i've been thru alot in the past couple of weeks, so the mind has been flowing...And I need to get some this out of my head..
Patience wearing thin
Don’t got the time to listen
You call it giving in
I say you’re not forgiven
Cuz time & time again
I’ve seen you wandering
Your seat is frozen
Consider the position open
Call it what you want
I’m hoping you get the picture
There’s no one else at fault
Take the blame, its quicker
No need to deny it
The facts told on you themselves
Thought you would’ve been smarter
Guess that’s credit you can’t get
Consider yourself denied
Love balance is outstanding
You know you messed up, right?
Really hope it was worth it
Was it the best investment of your life?
But now you’ve gone bankrupt
No need to fight it, just resign
Be a man about it
Take it in stride
Consider this one of the biggest mistakes
You’ve ever made in your life
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Labels: how i feel, hurt, life, love, new beginnings, pain