A little update

OK so i know that I've been MIA for a while and i apologize dearly. Its just that I've been really really busy. But I've been around and I've kept saying that I'm going to blog. So I'll do it now while the office is quiet.

So far I've been recovering well from my surgeries. I've yet to make a follow up with my PS but i will in due time. I still get pains every now and then but i usually hot water treat them and I'm good to go. I'm not too fond of pills anymore lol.

I've been hitting the gym like a maniac. I'm talking 5 days a week, for about 3 hours a day. Yeah, I'm that determined to get not only my mid, but my body right as well.

Lets not forget about how IN LOVE i am. With Newbs(newbie's new name) Like i really love him. And he knows. And we're cool with that lol. I try to spend as much time with him as possible because I'm always busy and he's always busy, but i love the time we have together. no matter if its at 2am or 2 pm.

Loser is still around. that's still my BFF. no matter what. But lately our friendship has been a lil bleh. we still hang, but i feel like were getting distant. but at this point in my life i refuse to chase someone for any reason but my own happiness. and I'm happy. truly, genuinely happy with where i am right now.

On another note. Yesterday was the anniversary of Brandon's death. and i was such a zombie. i kept having dreams about the night i found out he died. so i tried to keep myself as busy as possible.

But back to the happy tunes: i cant believe the summer is over! I mean, i spent most of it sick and shut in, so i guess i couldnt of expected it to wait for me to get better lol. I did enjoy the time i did use recreationally tho.

Well, that i'l im going to blabber about for now...Until later everyone.

♥

NY Craigslist..oye

OK, its been a while since I've posted ANYTHING, let alone a good ole NY CL men seeking women ad. I stumbled upon this scholar and my eyes sprang tears from the beauty of his writing

Harvard Scholarship Recipient game proper.

Lets see how many grammatical errors one can make. Follow along children:

Whats next girls with bullethole's and stabe Wounds? - 30 (Brooklyn)

I've Posted a few times on Cl and Got some creepy Women replying To my ad.I'm not saying I'm god's gift to Women or it's all about looks,but be realistic When replying to me. I'm Not Looking for a( Interacial relationship) I like women who share many of the same cultural values,psyical traits and Experieances as myself.No I'm not Racist so if your a White nationalist Nut or some Minority with a bad addituide keep it to your self I don't care what You have to say.I'm not into BBW,BIG,THICK or what ever you want to call it. I perfere Petite or athletic Builds and Women with in my age demograpic Having said all That .I'm looking to meet a Mature,Grounded Woman,but at the same time someone who is not To pretentious and is very much down to Earth.I feel it's very Healthy to have a partner someone Whose Got my back when things are good or Bad and I do the same for them.I'm not Interested in one night stands(Well, maybe If your really Hot and can help move me up the socio ecconomic ladder) Hahha.I would like to get married and have kids one day,but Hey It would even be great to just meet someone Who I can learn from and Grow with That shares a Attraction with one another.I'm trying Not to be To serious about Things Because Good things come and go out of our lives . I had the beauitfull girlfriend,but she was To Psycho and even made me a little Psycho. I had The Hot shot Job,but Got Laid off due the Eccomeny.Now I'm Working 10 hours more a week at a Job I'm over Quilified for just To make a living that is not laughiable. I try not to be To pridefull or to serious these days Because I want To Enjoy life and What it has To offer.I don't mean partying,Drinking or Clubbing I hate that stuff. I mean Learning,Evolving,Building meaningfull relationships with people.I'm a Guy whose had a very colorful past and has Lots of Crazzy stories To tell.My Experieances are what give me a certian insite,stranth and Drive To deal with and over comethings. so, If you like what you see or just want to know more Drop me a line with a picture and I will get back to you




Instead of searching for a woman, he needs to be searching for a tutor. And he was goin in too.. For shame.

Im BAAaaaAaAaCk!

whew enough of all these somber ass posts I'm back to being good ole C. A.

*waits for applause to end*

::side note:: every time i see the word applause i think apple sauce LOL


Anyways... Ive been recuperating from my surgery i had done 2 weeks ago. And boy did them drugs have me like one of my clients! lmao i was half sleep half slurring all over the damn place.

But the swelling is going down, and ive decided to step away from the Valium & percocets *temporary sad face* lol.

Everything on the other hand is going...aight.. me and the "boo" going thru a lil rough patch right now, but im willing to put in the effort to make it work. But if he acts up my ass is GONE. Its July. 'Tis the season to not being crying over no man. Its the season to get my sexy on. * looks down @ flat tummy with a SMILE* LOL


p.s omg i did my passport and that shit is so thick now you can slice bread with the damn pages LAWD. But my pic is rather ravishing.. compared to that horrid ass driver license pic im stil walkin around with lololol

ok im done chatting for now. ttyl. *besos*

One Day at a Time..

so its been 3 weeks since my loss.. and i must admit im doing alot better. Better than i expected to be doing. Ive finally come out of my house. Im working again..

I even planned a trip to Jamaica.

i figured that harping on the situation wont change the outcome, so i had to pick myself up and move on.

Me and my baby are still holding on strong.

Im even having my surgery done this saturday. Its all one big staircase that im determind to reach the top of.

Thanks to everybody who showed me support over these last couple of weeks. As much as i thought i needed to go thru it along, sometimes you just need that shoulder, advice, or ear to cheer you on to victory

:-)

Someone call me a young priest and an old priest.

cuz this negrah is in need of some haysoose christo in his life. At least he opted for boxer-briefs this time.

I wonder whats going thru the cameraman's mind during all o this.

please prep for a plethora of KFC grilled chicken chest boys gettin it on 'n Poppaannnn with some new household furniture. Watch your back Eureka vacuum cleaner.




R.I.P. folding chair *tear* you will be missed.

NY Craigslist... LAWD

lmao. i hate my cousin SO EFFIN MUCH!!

she and i have asecret affair with the men seeking men ads on NY Craigslist.

*le frackin sigh* @ this ish right heh so:

watch hot porn on my video ipod while i suck ur dick in ur car (rp, mv, fh - in your car)

hey guys. i'm looking for a local guy or a guy driving through the area who wants their dick sucked while they enjoy hot straight porn on my video ipod. its very tiny but large screen so its small & discreet. pick me up, park on a nearby street, whip it out, get sucked til u cum in my mouth, i swallow, u drop me off back where u picked me up, we part. no strings. no drama. no chat. just enjoy some hot straight porn while u enjoy my slutty mouth. gay/bi/straight whatever. single/divorced/engaged whatever. none of that matters. all races welcome. all body types welcome. all dick sizes welcome. all ages welcome (but you MUST be over 25 only). so all u need is a car & a dick. reply & lets plan it. this ad is for anytime. you can call me nasty names while you fuck my mouth. it just gets me in a sluttier mood.


i thought that was the worst until:

I GOT HERPES FROM...
Date: 2009-05-29, 5:54PM EDT

one of the guys on this site that wants you to be generous/gives massages. i asked beforehand if he was clean and he swore he was just tested for hiv and stds and was clean. i found out yesterday that i have herpes (which by the way, is INcurable, and spreadable even if you don't have any sores). i confronted him about it, and he said, oh well-- i hoped you wouldn't get it. turns out he knows he has it, but he doesn't care since he says that if someone is stupid enough to have sex for money, they "deserve it." he even admitted he's given it to several guys, and just laughs about it! he seemed so nice it was hard to believe he's actually a complete low life (in retrospect, it shouldn't be shocking since he is a whore...). now for the rest of my life i'm gonna have to tell anyone i'm about to have sex with that i may give this to them (condoms help a lot from spreading it, but are not 100% since ball sacks often have infected skin cells). all because of one stupid sex encounter! makes me wonder how many other guys (whores or not) are infected since this site is very "incestuous")

so i'm warning you all-- DON'T PAY FOR SEX FROM ANYONE ON THIS SITE! is it really worth it?!!


LMAO..it took you getting BURNED to figure this out GENIASS?

Fallen...and i cant get up

*sigh* i think I'm falling in love with newbie. its CRAZY to me too. i cant even tell you WHEN it happened, but i know its happening. and at this point, i don't even want to fight it anymore. I mean, after everything i went thru with Loser i was like " oh hell no Lucifer will be the UPS delivery man before i get into anything with anyone" and now I'm like, head over heels in love with this guy.

I'm not gonna go say he "perfect, & everything i can ask for" because all that shit is for Brenda Jackson novels. We fight, he gets me upset and the works, but he's a man, that's his job . LOL. but at the end of the day, when I'm layin in my bed, and i think about him, he hits me up. Its like he knows, that when I'm with him, im content. All the drama and the stress is out the door. He makes me happy. When I'm with him, i feel sexy, i feel confident, i feel how a woman should feel when shes in a special situation with someone.

and i feel like he knows. i don't know if i should tell him straight out. but i KNOW he knows. He's even dropped the "L" word a few weeks ago and i kind of giggled it off.

Call me a fool, i don't care. You never know.