Cant Carry A Notey

i was bored the other night so i recorded myself singing...was looking a mess so i am not on the video lol

This Week's Candy Memory Is...

FRUIT STRIPE GUM...






*sighs* just thinking about it is making me tear up...this is from back in the day when mom used to make her trip to Pathmark to buy my weeks supply of Lunchables & Mondo juices (lol) this was always at the cash register...in all its glory...all the flavors-which actually lasted from what i recall, but then again i had a little mouth so i guess it put in less work when chewing lol. the consistency of the gum....everything was perfect...

here's to you, Fruit Stripe...

I ♥ The Office Ninja

OK so by now most of you should know im obssessed with the personal ads on CL...i came across this one this morning and..LMFAO i can't see for yourself..



Office NINJA seeks Female Assasin (CLEAN NINJA Pics ) - m4w - 31 (NO Dirty Pics ALL G-RATED Clean)

Your Secret Friendship with a Married Ninja [ looking for a FEMALE by birth only]

Here is what I am offering: Daily ongoing communication via email. In the beginning I only expect to flirt and exchange small sweet convo. Start slow and build at YOUR pace.


You are size 6 - 12, hispanic PR or white or bi-racial/mixed Latina, straight or Bi (don't be shy) with LONG hair or at least shoulder length. If you have a tummy, tattoos, piercings it's ALL GOOD - I don't mind such things. I am 31 yrs old, 6ft, about 195lbs.

Please do NOT send me naked pix.

Face pics available. Your age, height and weight is NOT important so if you are larger than a 12 it's all good. Bonus points if you have a nice round belly and straight hair.

I can send you a VIRTUAL VOICEMAIL via email [ I do NOT need your tel #] if you want to HEAR my voice. Again, no phone # ---> just email.

Wanna see more photos? Of course you do. Go to that special SPACE where everybody from Obama to yo mama go that begins with "My" and add ******

You have NO tact.

You know what? i'm bout 3 seconds from putting my foot up the next bitch ass that tries to gimme some nasty look when im out with my "male" (lol)

Have some fucking respect. You see me with him. You're going to have the audacity to give him sexy eye while he sitting RIGHT next to me? You got me mixed up boo boo..Dont let this prissy look fool you.. Cuz i will snatch this hat off my mother fucking head, take off this cute lil sweater and beat you like you stole from my nana.

Contrary to the previous paragraph, i am not a violent person. But blatant disrespect like that will not be tolerated, in any way, shape or form. What makes it worse is that before he came she kept watching me, every time i look up me and her eyes make four...I mean, if you like what i'm wearing, compliment me. if you dont, turn the fuck away... But dont try to stare me down and then proceed to foam at the mouth when my man shows up. If she was a dime, honestly, i would've been flattered. But she was so washed up...She was doing me an injustice by focusing her attention on us...I was too happy when she finally decided to stop breaking her neck and went about her business...

WHEW that felt GOOD to get off my chest

Thank goodness he wasnt paying her any mind(from what i saw), But being in the mood i've been in lately, all i need is there to be no cereal in the cupboard, and im bout ready to commit a 187 on somebody.

How I Feel....

I'm not really one to express myself openly, but i've been thru alot in the past couple of weeks, so the mind has been flowing...And I need to get some this out of my head..


Patience wearing thin
Don’t got the time to listen
You call it giving in
I say you’re not forgiven
Cuz time & time again
I’ve seen you wandering
Your seat is frozen
Consider the position open
Call it what you want
I’m hoping you get the picture
There’s no one else at fault
Take the blame, its quicker
No need to deny it
The facts told on you themselves
Thought you would’ve been smarter
Guess that’s credit you can’t get
Consider yourself denied
Love balance is outstanding
You know you messed up, right?
Really hope it was worth it
Was it the best investment of your life?
But now you’ve gone bankrupt
No need to fight it, just resign
Be a man about it
Take it in stride
Consider this one of the biggest mistakes
You’ve ever made in your life

For My Fallen Soldiers...

Well, another year has come and past. it was a TOUGH one to say the least, but i woke up every morning in 2008...and for that i am thankful....This year alone, i lost about 5 people that i knew well or had the pleasure of meeting. Crazy, i know. Its wild that i went thru most of my life without barely going to 5 funerals..and i went to about 4 this year alone..

One the bright side, my health has improved and i was able to deal with a lot of personal demons.

2009 IS going to be a better year...


this is for my fallen soldiers...

Uncle Orlando
Teddy Aka "Sharky" 1988-2008
Ian Dyer Lock 1989-2008


and last but definitely not least..my Lil "mogul"...my nurse (lol he hated that)... my babes

Brandon Anthony Modeste :May 23, 1989- August 30, 2008

..not a day goes by when i don't think about you...the way you would mock my "white girl voice" how u would DeBo my iPod as soon as you got in my car...or my remote when u came to my crib. I cant even hear certain songs and not think about you...or watch Martin (lol)..Even though things weren't all PB & J i had and always will have mad love for you hun....Rest in peace B...

this is for you..i know if you got to hear this remix it would've been ya "tune"

In The Spirit Of Christmas..

Happy Holidays Everybody!

Every year I notice that Christmas just gets more and more boring...So Im gonna reminise about some of the things that brought me delight in Christmases past..

1. My Size Barbie

..Do I need to explain? what else could a 6 year old girl possible want besides a doll that wore the same size as you? (lol) I used to get in trouble for putting my clothes on this thing..

2. Easy Bake Oven

Rachel Ray was Probably still in high school when i was hooking up brownies with icin and some chocolare chip "cookies" lol..i was mad as hell when my cousin stuck the damn spoon in the oven and i had to basically dismantle this shit to get it out...

3. Baby Born

I guess this was for the future baby momma in me...

4. Fingernail Fun Salon

Oh yes, I was the SHIT with my lil press on nails...too bad i couldnt wash my hand or scratch my head after i would spend 'bout a half an hour getting my nails did....

5. PlayStation

I had to have one. And these were my games of choice..Dont Judge Me!(lol)







6. Olympic Gymnast Barbie



I guess my mother bought her for me so I would stop flipping all over the damn house.

....More to come lol